Yesterday I left Millwood Hospital in Arlington, Texas, USA... and for those whom do not know, it is a special kind of hospital. You see it is for 3 primary things, psych, detox, and a temp housing for the elderly whom have one of the previous categories. I was there for the psych part of it. For those whom don't know already, I suffer with depression and anxiety. Last Wednesday I became suicidal for approx 1.3 hours, because of this I was taken to a hospital and then was sent to Millwood Hospital. I was no longer suicidal, but the guy who did an assessment apparently felt I could not be trusted. So my heart pulse rate went up by about double, then I left after getting my vitals. I had before then, a hamburger, fries and a drink, all of which I could not finish due to my problems with swallowing at times. I had some nicotine in my system and I had a little food in my stomach, I had the comfort of an ambulance ride on a stretcher. After a good chunk of time from the hospital to Millwood, I arrived, they open the back doors, they say,"would you like to walk in or have us roll you in?" I said I would walk in, hahaha, big mistake both my feet cramp up. I wait and got taken in after the night staff came to the door, then I was lead into a room where I had to fill some paper-work. The guy whom brought me in, well he only came in a few times to let me know he had not forgotten me. The last time he did, I was so happy, because I had to urinate (yes that is right, I used he word urinate) so damn bad I was almost willing, to use the plant in the room. Anyway, I finished the paperwork and was rushed through all of the forms I had to sign... which confused me, since only 2 things make sense in this situation, 1 they we all BS paperwork or 2 there was some parts which would case me to not sign. So I signed it all without asking questions, which I am sure wasn't the best idea... keep in mind that I was beginning to me a little tired and this guy although had taken a long time before this part, though had now sped up. After all my possessions were taken and searched through, I was given a bag with some of my things, they had to take out the strings from my shoes as well. I was lead into my room, it was pretty close to wake-up yell, so I just laid there until then. My roommate then got up when it was time for vitals and the wake-up yell. I then just tried to get my barrings instead of freaking out me losing a good amount of my freedom. Then came the morning smoke break, we all muddled outside into a decent weak garden of an area and chilled out while chain smoking. lol I later learned why, it is because you don't really know when the next one will come around.
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PS what is the thank'o'mat? I seem to leave it on when I post... what is it lol I am not sure if I should have it on or not.