well, last i told any of you you anything about the events of my life, i figured its time for an update slash request
so a friend of mine, whos a former roommate from job corps, invited me to stay at a place he's gonna get in Utah. this will happen if the US Army doesn't discharge him for his bum knee (he in theories leaves for basic in the middle of January). the bad side if he DOESN'T get medical discharged, than i have to wait until march when he has the funds for the place. in any case, there's a room reserved.
if he does get discharged, then he and i and potentially another friend of his will invest in a van and become nomads....basically.
my parents are going to fly me to Utah when the time is right, so i do have a plan of action.
i'm also giving up pot for a while. though i have a medical license to smoke it, possess it, grow it, carry up to 2 ounces, it's not really what i need right now. finding an alternative to occupy my time is becoming somewhat of a challenge.
so among the alternatives includes reading, writing (i told myself i'm gonna right a best seller and that's what i'm gonna do) watching movies...ya know time waster stuff. financially, i'm waiting for SSI and another state funded welfare benefits program.
but recently, i found myself fiending for Freelancer: Crossfire. the amount of involvment i want to do (beyond being the News Anchor for SNN and running the logistics of Focks Industries on the Forums) is starting to...well lets say the effects resemble something to that of a recovering heroin addict...without the heroin of course.
so i reach out the to Crossfire and SWAT Community for a laptop donation. i'm not looking for a fancy 6 billion dollar laptop. in fact something capable of playing only CF would probably suffice. internet isn't a big concern since my apartment complex has wifi in the clubhouse. it's going to take another month and a half or so for a decision on SSI and if it's not the decision i want, than i'm going to appeal it until i get the answer i want. there's an add for a laptop on the bulletin board near my mailbox for something that probably can play CF without all the fancy visual upgrades, but it's $100. so if a physical laptop isn't possible, than monetary donations work as well.
now some of you will say "get a job you bum," but the fact is, i have a few disabilities that make it extremely difficult to find and keep a job. the last job i held lasted two weeks. i want to work, believe me i do, but at this point in the game it's not gonna happen.
so if some of you folk are sympathetic to my fiending for Freelancer, by all means, shoot me a PM. if not...nuts to you then 
